Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Only the lack-of-brain racist will follow blindly.
I personally respect the artist Namewee as he is the man who dare to express out what Chinese as well other ethnic groups in Malaysia think especially in terms of government's irresponsibility and racism, but I DO NOT agree with his style of foul languages expression as well as demonstration of disturbing body languages. However we human, given a brain which is logic-filled does come along with capability of thinking and filtering out what we shouldn't learn from. As the video <> I totally disgusted by his disturbing demonstrations but I'm serious with its core idea of anti-racism. And now as we can see he is being cast by investigation for provoking racism issue, EVEN though his showed anti-racism in that particular video. Guys, what I want to show you is the government is totally sick and it makes us sick as well. It has lost its value of morality. IF WE DON"T DO SOMETHING TO AT LEAST CEASE IT DOWN WE WILL BE IN HOT SOUP. THINK ABOUT WHAT KIND OF ENVIRONMENT WE WANT TO LEFT BEHIND FOR OUR FUTURE GENERATIONS. DO NOT TELL ME YOU WILL WORK HARD AND LEAVE THE COUNTRY OR YOU ARE JUST A PROBLEM-ESCAPER. For the sake of ALL Malaysians (NOT only Chinese), do something, please.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
More random feeling(s)...
I just realised that I deliberately fire on a lot of innocent people. So if you are one of them, you have my apologise. hehe (shouldn't write a blog in the middle of night, can't think properly, perhaps that is the time that I can express my feelings deep in my heart)
Ok erm, instead of talking about politics, I decided to share what am I going to do in the future, since politics are too dirty for most of you guys.
What can a zoologist do?
Basically you can be a research scientist/analyst, conservation officer, veterinary laboratories, academic research or even a policy consultant/adviser, working for private companies or even government. If you are lucky enough, you could have a chance to be a TV presenter as Steve Irwin did.
Where do want to work in the future?
Here come some main points. I really home I can go back to Malaysia, establishing family (if I do) over there. In fact, I'm neither a Kiwi nor Chinese of China. Most of the Malaysian Chinese thinks that the policy of Malaysia is worst, racist, corruption or some other negative stuffs, so a lot of them (not all) have been educated like this: Be hardworking, study like crazy, get a chance to study oversea, graduate over there, work there, find a girlfriend/boyfriend and married over there, and finally throw away your citizenship and never come back.
Well is it fair enough that the government doesn't treat us fairly as well. That's why we lost a lot of man(woman) power/resource. But think about this : If you are lucky, rich enough to leave the country, then that's fine; but how about those who are not as lucky as you? Are they deserve to suffer over there?
Sorry to say, sometimes I think that those who throw away their citizenship and can't be bothered on what on Earth is happening back there, is a bit.........kind of..........selfish
I'm really felt sorry if I simply generalise you, but this is my thinking.
I felt a strong calling that God is calling me go back and stay there. My sister shared to me last time: Why God had placed you in this wonderful country? Why not Australia? U.K? or somewhere else that is comfortable? There must be a answer for this from God. The may a calling for me, not for others, but sometimes, think about the question mentioned above, and see how you feel.
We trust in God, doesn't we will always be comfortable. Yes staying in Malaysia is kind of life draining but you could treat this as suffering for God. People back there need to hear the Gospel of God. Heresy, corruption is everywhere, which can't be changed by human, but God. And suffer for the Gospel of God is always worthy since the Gospel is so precious which is about the salvation for a soul. "so do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord, or ashamed of me his prisoner. But join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power o God" 2 Timothy 1:5-8
In fact, that country is just so wonderful. I can strongly experience that there are too many things that New Zealand can't and never have just like Malaysia has. On the other hand, there are a lot of stuff that Malaysia can learn from New Zealand (or some other developed country). We simply have everything like resources, we even can be self-sufficient if we do manage it properly. This land is not worst, it is just not good enough.
And luckily the country is still a democratic country, as a citizen, you will always have a responsibility to change the country. We love the country, not the government, and sometimes we may have to treat the government as a foreigner if they are corrupting the land. Think about this : Would you like to allow the bad things continue to happen over there? If yes, ask your self-conscious again; If not, doing something, at least a lot of prayers, please.
If you can't think about anything that Malaysia is a better place to stay, I can probably help you with it. (for the points below I'll compare Malaysia and New Zealand)
1) Yes Malaysia is hot, but at least it is consistent. Weather and climate of New Zealand is just so emotional, especially Dunedin. As the saying goes : 4 seasons in a day. In Malaysia we don't need to buy thick, puffy, and super expensive winter cloth to keep us warm, which cut down part of the living cost. We do need air-con, but not heat pump or fire to keep us warm as well, and sometimes we can just open the window to solve the problem
2) Yes the living cost in Malaysia is high, but, is it? We have the lowest food price and basic living cost through out south-east Asia. The food here is so expensive which 1 meal here can fulfill your stomach 3 times back there.
3) Yes the people in Malaysia is so bad, again, is it? Or just the minority politician? The land is just a total mix of culture which provide a prefect medium to let us exchange with each others. So that's why we are at least bilingual (I'm trilingual. hehe). For those who think English is the only language you have to learn, think again. The world is no longer like before. Globalisation is a fact, which drives multi-lingual to a absolute advantage. In other words, the more language you literate (I stress here, is literal, not one of speak/write/read), the more advantage you have. Well basically New Zealand is still English dominant, with Maori as second, and the culture doesn't mix very well compare to Malaysia.
And most importantly, home is always the home. Just like the home in heaven.
Well, a long long blog again.
Sorry if my patriot missiles blow you again =.=
Ok erm, instead of talking about politics, I decided to share what am I going to do in the future, since politics are too dirty for most of you guys.
What can a zoologist do?
Basically you can be a research scientist/analyst, conservation officer, veterinary laboratories, academic research or even a policy consultant/adviser, working for private companies or even government. If you are lucky enough, you could have a chance to be a TV presenter as Steve Irwin did.
Where do want to work in the future?
Here come some main points. I really home I can go back to Malaysia, establishing family (if I do) over there. In fact, I'm neither a Kiwi nor Chinese of China. Most of the Malaysian Chinese thinks that the policy of Malaysia is worst, racist, corruption or some other negative stuffs, so a lot of them (not all) have been educated like this: Be hardworking, study like crazy, get a chance to study oversea, graduate over there, work there, find a girlfriend/boyfriend and married over there, and finally throw away your citizenship and never come back.
Well is it fair enough that the government doesn't treat us fairly as well. That's why we lost a lot of man(woman) power/resource. But think about this : If you are lucky, rich enough to leave the country, then that's fine; but how about those who are not as lucky as you? Are they deserve to suffer over there?
Sorry to say, sometimes I think that those who throw away their citizenship and can't be bothered on what on Earth is happening back there, is a bit.........kind of..........selfish
I'm really felt sorry if I simply generalise you, but this is my thinking.
I felt a strong calling that God is calling me go back and stay there. My sister shared to me last time: Why God had placed you in this wonderful country? Why not Australia? U.K? or somewhere else that is comfortable? There must be a answer for this from God. The may a calling for me, not for others, but sometimes, think about the question mentioned above, and see how you feel.
We trust in God, doesn't we will always be comfortable. Yes staying in Malaysia is kind of life draining but you could treat this as suffering for God. People back there need to hear the Gospel of God. Heresy, corruption is everywhere, which can't be changed by human, but God. And suffer for the Gospel of God is always worthy since the Gospel is so precious which is about the salvation for a soul. "so do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord, or ashamed of me his prisoner. But join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power o God" 2 Timothy 1:5-8
In fact, that country is just so wonderful. I can strongly experience that there are too many things that New Zealand can't and never have just like Malaysia has. On the other hand, there are a lot of stuff that Malaysia can learn from New Zealand (or some other developed country). We simply have everything like resources, we even can be self-sufficient if we do manage it properly. This land is not worst, it is just not good enough.
And luckily the country is still a democratic country, as a citizen, you will always have a responsibility to change the country. We love the country, not the government, and sometimes we may have to treat the government as a foreigner if they are corrupting the land. Think about this : Would you like to allow the bad things continue to happen over there? If yes, ask your self-conscious again; If not, doing something, at least a lot of prayers, please.
If you can't think about anything that Malaysia is a better place to stay, I can probably help you with it. (for the points below I'll compare Malaysia and New Zealand)
1) Yes Malaysia is hot, but at least it is consistent. Weather and climate of New Zealand is just so emotional, especially Dunedin. As the saying goes : 4 seasons in a day. In Malaysia we don't need to buy thick, puffy, and super expensive winter cloth to keep us warm, which cut down part of the living cost. We do need air-con, but not heat pump or fire to keep us warm as well, and sometimes we can just open the window to solve the problem
2) Yes the living cost in Malaysia is high, but, is it? We have the lowest food price and basic living cost through out south-east Asia. The food here is so expensive which 1 meal here can fulfill your stomach 3 times back there.
3) Yes the people in Malaysia is so bad, again, is it? Or just the minority politician? The land is just a total mix of culture which provide a prefect medium to let us exchange with each others. So that's why we are at least bilingual (I'm trilingual. hehe). For those who think English is the only language you have to learn, think again. The world is no longer like before. Globalisation is a fact, which drives multi-lingual to a absolute advantage. In other words, the more language you literate (I stress here, is literal, not one of speak/write/read), the more advantage you have. Well basically New Zealand is still English dominant, with Maori as second, and the culture doesn't mix very well compare to Malaysia.
And most importantly, home is always the home. Just like the home in heaven.
Well, a long long blog again.
Sorry if my patriot missiles blow you again =.=
Random feeling.
I will just simple bypass the part that I'm gonna apologize for letting the blog rotting <-- like this.
Well first of all, I think I'm going to mention some negative stuffs again.
Probably not the first few paragraph, as I may like to give you guys a sit-rep (situation report) of what on Earth I'm up to.
Well I might have to introduce myself first.
My name is Ethan, Pang as surname.
Born in 1991, 18 going to 19.
Single (always)
My friends used to call me Eaten, as I can't pronounce my name very precisely in the very first place. And in fact they do ask me question like this : "Ethan have you Eaten?" whenever they meet me, which is kind of.........frustrating (sorry guys! no offense!)
Doing Bachelor of Science in Zoology, which most of the Asian won't do that since it doesn't make enough money for them.
Oh by the way I'm doing that University of Otago, Dunedin, New Zealand.
Nationality : Malaysian
Ethnicity : 100% Chinese
And I'm kind of nationalist, in other words, patriotic. So political issues back in Malaysia are always my concern.
Mandarin is always my first language, but my accent is so........hilarious, which most of the West-Malaysian talk like this (sorry for the guys from the East, but you don't really talk like we do! wehehe)
In fact, I do speak English and Malays, but please, don't expect I can speak as well as some of the people who grew up with English education (I tried to substitute the word "banana" very hard, and still English is not my first language). Speaking English for me is just like you speak Mandarin. <-- Sorry I admit I shoot a lot of people in this paragraph. Please forgive me because I come here to learn, not for being laugh by you guys. wahaha
Religion : Christianity -- Protestant
Grew up as a Presbyterian, now involve in Pentecostal, or Charismatic church, which conservative Presbyterians will probably ban it.
Anyway, Jesus Love You
Characteristic : I might have to write a few paragraph though
Let's imagine a normal distribution curve. I'm the one who is classified, or grouped if you like, into the tail parts of the curve (sorry I'm doing statistic this year), which mean, I may not be like those usual people you came across, or, I'm really unusual.(weird?)
Talk about my course that I'm doing currently -- zoology.
Somebody deliberately define that Asian should do health science or business as well as law, which makes a lot of money and they can enjoy heaps, materially. However I'm doing neither of them. So people will think that "Will that makes money?"
Well sometimes I really have to comment about it though. I don't understand why people always wanted to do those career that I mentioned above. Yes some of them is really committed and ambitious which I'm happy and agree with it. But some of them say : "Asians should do these", "Makes money, money is everything", "I don't what to do" and the worst thing is "My parent wants me to do that, family background is based on this career", etc.
Erm, I'll try not to hurt somebodies' feeling, hopefully. (apologize in advance, no offense)
In my opinion, I will ask : who on Earth said that Asians (especially Chineses) should do these or you are not Asians (Chineses)? If you have to do doctors, businessman/woman or lawyer just because you are a Asians (Chinese), then what if you are not? Is that means you don't need to do if you are not Asians (Chinese).
If that's comes from family pressure, then ask yourself (or you parent): Is it your own career/future, or theirs? For me parent can only be a consultant or adviser at some stage of you age/life. When come across the decision-making stuffs, do nice talk to them. You are not your parent's tool, even though you have to be obedient (well obedient doesn't means you need to be a tool, or that is fake) to your parent.
Oh come on, genetic variation really works though. Don't expect all the people you come across will be the same. Extremity does exist, just like there is no perfection/uniform cases in medication. People always have different properties which make them unique.
As a christian I will say : God has a great plan for you, which makes you so unique and massive to glorify his name. But still, you may not have to be a doctor/businessman or woman/lawyer, or the world will just so restricted. And sometimes, do follow your heart, ask yourself what are you really interested in, even a certain instinct is deeply planted in you since you are young.
Or, ask God, the almighty Lord.
Ok come back to me. I don't look into the money so much. Although I (we) need it, I still won't set the money as my priority, by sacrificing everything I have. I don't like to spend too much time just for money (not animal either), but friends, partner (again, I'm still single), family, and most importantly, God. There is too much thing better than money that you won't bought it in the supermarket with your dollars. Plus, accumulating treasure in the heaven is a goal for every christian, rather than making huge amount of money, which will rot, and can't bring along with you after you died.
I do like animals. I feel so amazed by them, especially their behaviors. I lost my defend and just want to get close to it to know more about it. They are creation of God which is so special, which I can't help myself to cover up my instinct. Even though the hedgehog is very thorny, I did carry it into my room, take some photos, and have a play with it. Hurting my hand is just doesn't matter (as long as I'm still in one piece).
OK chop chop. Let's move on.
You probably can kind of understand my characteristic from the last few paragraphs (and you probably thinking I'm really........weird? haha. unusual?)
Well I changes my mind again. I think this blog is too long for my precious readers. Let's call it a day.
p/s: Where do we up to? My career and stuffs right? Well I may continue this blog by talking about.......my politically view perhaps?
Well first of all, I think I'm going to mention some negative stuffs again.
Probably not the first few paragraph, as I may like to give you guys a sit-rep (situation report) of what on Earth I'm up to.
Well I might have to introduce myself first.
My name is Ethan, Pang as surname.
Born in 1991, 18 going to 19.
Single (always)
My friends used to call me Eaten, as I can't pronounce my name very precisely in the very first place. And in fact they do ask me question like this : "Ethan have you Eaten?" whenever they meet me, which is kind of.........frustrating (sorry guys! no offense!)
Doing Bachelor of Science in Zoology, which most of the Asian won't do that since it doesn't make enough money for them.
Oh by the way I'm doing that University of Otago, Dunedin, New Zealand.
Nationality : Malaysian
Ethnicity : 100% Chinese
And I'm kind of nationalist, in other words, patriotic. So political issues back in Malaysia are always my concern.
Mandarin is always my first language, but my accent is so........hilarious, which most of the West-Malaysian talk like this (sorry for the guys from the East, but you don't really talk like we do! wehehe)
In fact, I do speak English and Malays, but please, don't expect I can speak as well as some of the people who grew up with English education (I tried to substitute the word "banana" very hard, and still English is not my first language). Speaking English for me is just like you speak Mandarin. <-- Sorry I admit I shoot a lot of people in this paragraph. Please forgive me because I come here to learn, not for being laugh by you guys. wahaha
Religion : Christianity -- Protestant
Grew up as a Presbyterian, now involve in Pentecostal, or Charismatic church, which conservative Presbyterians will probably ban it.
Anyway, Jesus Love You
Characteristic : I might have to write a few paragraph though
Let's imagine a normal distribution curve. I'm the one who is classified, or grouped if you like, into the tail parts of the curve (sorry I'm doing statistic this year), which mean, I may not be like those usual people you came across, or, I'm really unusual.(weird?)
Talk about my course that I'm doing currently -- zoology.
Somebody deliberately define that Asian should do health science or business as well as law, which makes a lot of money and they can enjoy heaps, materially. However I'm doing neither of them. So people will think that "Will that makes money?"
Well sometimes I really have to comment about it though. I don't understand why people always wanted to do those career that I mentioned above. Yes some of them is really committed and ambitious which I'm happy and agree with it. But some of them say : "Asians should do these", "Makes money, money is everything", "I don't what to do" and the worst thing is "My parent wants me to do that, family background is based on this career", etc.
Erm, I'll try not to hurt somebodies' feeling, hopefully. (apologize in advance, no offense)
In my opinion, I will ask : who on Earth said that Asians (especially Chineses) should do these or you are not Asians (Chineses)? If you have to do doctors, businessman/woman or lawyer just because you are a Asians (Chinese), then what if you are not? Is that means you don't need to do if you are not Asians (Chinese).
If that's comes from family pressure, then ask yourself (or you parent): Is it your own career/future, or theirs? For me parent can only be a consultant or adviser at some stage of you age/life. When come across the decision-making stuffs, do nice talk to them. You are not your parent's tool, even though you have to be obedient (well obedient doesn't means you need to be a tool, or that is fake) to your parent.
Oh come on, genetic variation really works though. Don't expect all the people you come across will be the same. Extremity does exist, just like there is no perfection/uniform cases in medication. People always have different properties which make them unique.
As a christian I will say : God has a great plan for you, which makes you so unique and massive to glorify his name. But still, you may not have to be a doctor/businessman or woman/lawyer, or the world will just so restricted. And sometimes, do follow your heart, ask yourself what are you really interested in, even a certain instinct is deeply planted in you since you are young.
Or, ask God, the almighty Lord.
Ok come back to me. I don't look into the money so much. Although I (we) need it, I still won't set the money as my priority, by sacrificing everything I have. I don't like to spend too much time just for money (not animal either), but friends, partner (again, I'm still single), family, and most importantly, God. There is too much thing better than money that you won't bought it in the supermarket with your dollars. Plus, accumulating treasure in the heaven is a goal for every christian, rather than making huge amount of money, which will rot, and can't bring along with you after you died.
I do like animals. I feel so amazed by them, especially their behaviors. I lost my defend and just want to get close to it to know more about it. They are creation of God which is so special, which I can't help myself to cover up my instinct. Even though the hedgehog is very thorny, I did carry it into my room, take some photos, and have a play with it. Hurting my hand is just doesn't matter (as long as I'm still in one piece).
OK chop chop. Let's move on.
You probably can kind of understand my characteristic from the last few paragraphs (and you probably thinking I'm really........weird? haha. unusual?)
Well I changes my mind again. I think this blog is too long for my precious readers. Let's call it a day.
p/s: Where do we up to? My career and stuffs right? Well I may continue this blog by talking about.......my politically view perhaps?
Friday, February 5, 2010
That's how we done.
We were started out from winter, and finally ended like a summer.
I simply can't believe that I had finished the Foundation Year course. I just realised that how fast is the time flies.
I'm not far away from the time I was fresh here. Everything is so scary over here. Culture shock could be the most horrible things I ever experienced. My English was really bad when I was first here (and could be still bad now for somebody ==)and I have seen the progress I get better. The climate was very bad in the winter and the cold kills, well summer is worst since it could hail during the summer.
I enjoyed the food, but lack of spicy stuff over here. You have to pay more to get a similar one. I enjoyed homestay very much, don't even feel like want to flatting outside.I enjoyed the air here, but absolutely not the nasty winds. I made a lot of friends from different countries, that's why I got the opportunity to improve my lousy English. I like the country, but bear in mind, I'm still a Malaysia and I'm proud of it.
I experienced God, the most importantly. God had guide me through the wilderness of this journey, lead me out of the failure, protect me from scarceness and push me towards to the success, to glorify His Name.
Thanks and praise Lord for the moment which He had helped and guided me.
I simply can't believe that I had finished the Foundation Year course. I just realised that how fast is the time flies.
I'm not far away from the time I was fresh here. Everything is so scary over here. Culture shock could be the most horrible things I ever experienced. My English was really bad when I was first here (and could be still bad now for somebody ==)and I have seen the progress I get better. The climate was very bad in the winter and the cold kills, well summer is worst since it could hail during the summer.
I enjoyed the food, but lack of spicy stuff over here. You have to pay more to get a similar one. I enjoyed homestay very much, don't even feel like want to flatting outside.I enjoyed the air here, but absolutely not the nasty winds. I made a lot of friends from different countries, that's why I got the opportunity to improve my lousy English. I like the country, but bear in mind, I'm still a Malaysia and I'm proud of it.
I experienced God, the most importantly. God had guide me through the wilderness of this journey, lead me out of the failure, protect me from scarceness and push me towards to the success, to glorify His Name.
Thanks and praise Lord for the moment which He had helped and guided me.
Friday, December 11, 2009
My heart is tired
Seriously, I don't know what am I doing nowadays.
I had been back-stabbed by my friendlies (well is my fault to treat him as friendlies)
I helped him, and he choose to do this to me.
He back-attacked me in front of their friends.
I feel really hurt and hard to forget about this.
I had given a chance for him since he did tortured me during the NS with the new friends he met.
Gosh he became allied with those new people to attack his friendlies.
Alright I forget about this, and he choose to do this again.
Now that's sound great.
I don't what to do now.
I started to think, I might be a public enemy.
I don't know who is truly a friend, or an undercover among the friends, seeking for a chance to take me down.
I opened my heart, but someone had take this opportunity to cut my heard straight away.
I used to be left out by the friends in the school since young.
Although we know each other, they didn't asked me for a outing during weekends or stuffs.
I started to feel like, all of these, is because of my problem.
I'm a bad guy.
I'm a stranger.
I'm weird.
I'm not doing the things that normal people does.
I'm out of the topic.
I'm worst.
I should think about this before I intended to have a girl friend.
But I didn't, that's why I was hurt again.
I feel really very bad right here, right now.
I'm pretending.
I'm fake.
My heart is so cold, I lost the enthusiasm for everything.
Even my favorite subject, biology, is not an exception.
I did all my subject worst than how I did last term. All of them got their marks declined.
The serious one is, I even lost the enthusiasm and passion for God.
I keep sinning.
I know I was wrong but I can't stop that by myself.
I feel really bad.
Really hurt.
I serious don't know what to do now.
I feel like my spirit is rotten.
I'm officially got the supercharger break down.
My heart is tired.
God, help me.
I had been back-stabbed by my friendlies (well is my fault to treat him as friendlies)
I helped him, and he choose to do this to me.
He back-attacked me in front of their friends.
I feel really hurt and hard to forget about this.
I had given a chance for him since he did tortured me during the NS with the new friends he met.
Gosh he became allied with those new people to attack his friendlies.
Alright I forget about this, and he choose to do this again.
Now that's sound great.
I don't what to do now.
I started to think, I might be a public enemy.
I don't know who is truly a friend, or an undercover among the friends, seeking for a chance to take me down.
I opened my heart, but someone had take this opportunity to cut my heard straight away.
I used to be left out by the friends in the school since young.
Although we know each other, they didn't asked me for a outing during weekends or stuffs.
I started to feel like, all of these, is because of my problem.
I'm a bad guy.
I'm a stranger.
I'm weird.
I'm not doing the things that normal people does.
I'm out of the topic.
I'm worst.
I should think about this before I intended to have a girl friend.
But I didn't, that's why I was hurt again.
I feel really very bad right here, right now.
I'm pretending.
I'm fake.
My heart is so cold, I lost the enthusiasm for everything.
Even my favorite subject, biology, is not an exception.
I did all my subject worst than how I did last term. All of them got their marks declined.
The serious one is, I even lost the enthusiasm and passion for God.
I keep sinning.
I know I was wrong but I can't stop that by myself.
I feel really bad.
Really hurt.
I serious don't know what to do now.
I feel like my spirit is rotten.
I'm officially got the supercharger break down.
My heart is tired.
God, help me.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Best Wishes for my best friend....
Heard about, you might going back to Malaysia or even UK, for further study rather than staying at New Zealand.......
Well, it's sound sad for me.
My besties is leaving me again.
Although we get know each other for only couples of months,
there were too much things happened around us,
and developed our friendship.
I still remember that, you are the one who talk to me first.
Anyway, I have to say that,
In fact,
You are the one who care about me.
You are the one who text me, asked where am I, how was going, what am I doing...stuffs like that by filling up my inbox.
You are the one who makes me understand that it's doesn't matter rich or poor, because something of us is missing, and something from us can fill up each other.
You are the one who makes me believe that pure friendship between boys and girls does exist, instead of relationship.
You are the one who are willing to share problems with me, so am I.
You are the one who accompanied me during my difficulties time.
You are the one who I want to treat a meal.
You are the one who is the first girl I ever hugged.
You are the one who are so mean to me.
So, thanks for everything, sorry for anything.
Best wishes, farewell, and goodbye to my very best friend, Michelle.
Friendship Forever
Well, it's sound sad for me.
My besties is leaving me again.
Although we get know each other for only couples of months,
there were too much things happened around us,
and developed our friendship.
I still remember that, you are the one who talk to me first.
Anyway, I have to say that,
In fact,
You are the one who care about me.
You are the one who text me, asked where am I, how was going, what am I doing...stuffs like that by filling up my inbox.
You are the one who makes me understand that it's doesn't matter rich or poor, because something of us is missing, and something from us can fill up each other.
You are the one who makes me believe that pure friendship between boys and girls does exist, instead of relationship.
You are the one who are willing to share problems with me, so am I.
You are the one who accompanied me during my difficulties time.
You are the one who I want to treat a meal.
You are the one who is the first girl I ever hugged.
You are the one who are so mean to me.
So, thanks for everything, sorry for anything.
Best wishes, farewell, and goodbye to my very best friend, Michelle.
Friendship Forever
Friday, September 11, 2009
Its hurts
And again. It is time to give up.
A best friend had told me an bad news, which giving me such an impact for me.
She is not willing to with me.
Fine, that's great.
I know that she know I like her and what she thinks now.
Its hurt man.
2nd attempt become a failure again.
Damn I so stress and fear for few days, but I cant express it on my face.
Damn pain.
I felt very guilty to like her, because I know that I was damn wrong.
I shouldn't falling on someone on the first sight, which I'm not conscious about it.
That's great. I learned one more thing then.
I'm too innocent and immature. I'm not conscious on what on the earth am I doing.
Even talking also not processed by brain, most of the time.
Great, I got whole lots of weakness through out my body.
I have enough. I need to rest.
Its very hurt and very pain.
A best friend had told me an bad news, which giving me such an impact for me.
She is not willing to with me.
Fine, that's great.
I know that she know I like her and what she thinks now.
Its hurt man.
2nd attempt become a failure again.
Damn I so stress and fear for few days, but I cant express it on my face.
Damn pain.
I felt very guilty to like her, because I know that I was damn wrong.
I shouldn't falling on someone on the first sight, which I'm not conscious about it.
That's great. I learned one more thing then.
I'm too innocent and immature. I'm not conscious on what on the earth am I doing.
Even talking also not processed by brain, most of the time.
Great, I got whole lots of weakness through out my body.
I have enough. I need to rest.
Its very hurt and very pain.
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